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2006-08-17 - 10:08 a.m. I'm so very frustrated. About 6 weeks ago or so I decided to really ramp up my walking/diet. My weight has not moved up or down for the past 9 months. I just wanted something to happen. So I decided to try and move as much as possible and to try and make sure I got in my 10,000 steps each day. I religiously wear a pedometer all day, it's become like second nature and a part of my wardrobe. Usually when I get home I've walked around 5000-6000 on a normal day at work, then I get on the treadmill to make it to my 10,000. I've also tried to modify my diet where I'm only eating things found in nature and not as much of it. I admit that sometimes I've not adhered to this as much as I'd like. I'm only human, right? I thought that by doing this I would lose some weight and get in shape. I'm starting to think that NOTHING will make the scales move short of chopping off a body part or two. I'm now walking nearly 30 miles a week. I've already done 20 miles this week. Has all this walking done any good? oh hell no. I've even measured myself to see if I might be losing some inches and gaining muscle, which might account for the no loss situation. oh hell no. I haven't lost one inch. I haven't lost one ounce. I should think I would feel better too. oh hell no. I just feel tired and cranky. (and no, it's not that time of the month either) And yes, I'm doing other things besides walking. I'm lifting weights. I'm doing crunches. nothing. I'm starting to think of bulimia in a serious way...or perhaps not eating at all. I can't afford liposuction so that would be the only other alternative at this point. sigh. So very, very frustrated. Sorry to vent, but I really need to. Please ignore the stuff about bulimia and don't send me any comments telling me how bad it is...I really do know that.
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